Feeling My Age

I always considered myself lucky when it came to how I looked in relation to how old I am. I look a good ten years younger and have never had any surgery done. There have been advantages as well as disadvantages. The shocked look on people's faces when they find out is always cool but being treated like a child by people who are my age can get pretty tiresome.

This past weekend, however, really made me feel my age.

I had a headache on Thursday - nothing too bad but instead of having people over I would have rather been in a dark quiet room, getting rid of the thing. In any case, Friday came around, I went to work but didn't feel great. I was tired and as the day went on, my head took a turn - like it had turned onto the on ramp to painville. Going straight home, I figured I would get into bed, get some sleep and I'd be fine in a couple of hours but that wasn't what was in store.

Migraines are nothing new to me but it's very rare that they get this bad. I can count on one hand how many I've had that have caused this much pain and suffering. If you have ever had a migraine, you'll know what I mean.

Tylenol, Advil don't do anything for my migraines (even if the box says they're made for that type of headache) and I can't take any of the prescription medication because of a heart condition so I use ice packs and have several in the freezer. At first, the ice seemed to help but then the nausea started. When my stomach was fine, my head felt like there was a thick metal spike in my head being hit by a metal hammer. The more I felt sick to my stomach, though, the less the pain was in my head. Ten years ago I had a headache like this and I knew that if I just let myself get sick, that everything would be fine.

I made up my mind and let the nausea take over but nothing happened. I couldn't decide which was worse, the pain in my head or waiting to throw up. I won't get into details but as I was being sick, a new sensation occurred and I didn't think it was possible to think things could get worse. The strain made it feel like the back of my head (not where the migraine was to begin with) exploded. There was such an intense pain across the back of my neck it felt as though I had burst every blood vessel I had. It was so bad I thought I had to go to the hospital.

Eventually the pain went away but it's two days later and I'm still feeling like absolute crap. That's where the age thing is coming into play. It's taking longer to recover and I hate it. I do know it is time to get back to the doctor and get something done because this is getting really tough to handle. It was the first time I really felt like I wanted to die.

So I'm hoping that tomorrow I'll be feeling better.