I've been trying to keep myself busy so I don't sit around and think too much. Thinking leads to questions about why I'm feeling the way I am and the problem with all of that is that I don't have any answers. If I knew what the underlying problem was maybe I could get past them. I'm not expecting to come up with the answers overnight but the worst of it not knowing why. I've figured out that I'm organizing my home because at least it's something I can have some sort of control over. There's a place for everything, I'll be able to find things easier since cleaning up my things is easier than trying to clean up my mind
The crying started again. I thought I was past it. It's not as bad as it has been but it's still a pain in the butt. Walking along the sidewalk, trying to enjoy the nice weather and listen to music is difficult to do when all of a sudden my thoughts get out of control.
My supplements got changed around too and it's been difficult to remember that I don't take everything at the same time anymore. I have to trust my homeopath even though I don't understand what the difference between taking some pills in the morning and taking them with dinner.
I'm just so frustrated right now. I need a job, I need to pay bills, I want to get better but I feel like I'm stuck. I don't feel like I'm moving forward which just makes me want to crawl into bed and never come out.
The day just started and I have to keep reminding myself tomorrow might be better.
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